Honesty is an interesting thing. People get mad when you lie, people get mad when you tell the truth. What do you want from me? Do you want me to hide the fact that I like to party? that I like to fuck? that I like to do drugs? Do you want me to tell you that I sit in my nice clean home on friday nights and read Steinbeck? Cause I can tell you that, but it'd be no where near the truth. and then you'd probably get pissed I lied. But face it: I'm young, I'm dumb and I'm having fun. When it stops being fun, I'll slow down. But for now, long live the lifestyle I choose to lead. Here are some truths:
- I am at the same time, cripplingly self conscious and ridiculously self assured. I love myself, I think I'm awesome, there are even days where I think I'm a total fox but there are times that I question this confidence. Other people can easily make me feel extremely small. Sometimes I feel like I live in the shadows of those around me, waiting for my turn to shine. I hope that I do not forever feel like the lovable sidekick-- quick with a joke, a funny anecdote, sound advice, and a comfy shoulder to lean on. Someday, I hope to be the star of my own show.
- Truly, I would do anything for those I love. Whatchu need? I got you. Occasionally I do too much and get too little in return. But really, I don't even care about that. I don't do nice things for any reason besides you being my friend. I love you, you rule, you deserve the world.
- I just got "cock talk" tattooed above my knees cause its hilarious. It looks better when I'm on my knees, even though i don't spend much time down there. Unless I like you a lot, or am waaaaaaaasted. (hah! ladies...) People often ask me how I'll feel about my tattoos when I'm an old lady, and all I can think is "well... i'll be an old lady! who cares?" By the time I'm 90 (if I make it there) nothing will matter. You can do whatever the fuck you want when you are old. Including having a saggy cock on your knee. I don't really even care about much now. Its all about living in the moment, my friends. And I'd rather have this hilarious joke that I share with 3 of my best ladies, to look down on for the rest of my life then to wake up one day regretting never doing the things I wanted to do.
- I have absolutely no idea what is going to happen with the rest of my life. I only know what is going on right now. this second. And I am totally ok with that. Maybe there is fate? Maybe I will just end up somewhere? or maybe its high time I get my ass in gear, I'm not really sure. The only things that mean anything to me right now are my friends, music (and various other forms of art), and having fun. So hopefully I can just continue to live my life surrounded by those things forever. We shall see. Momma quit yo' worrying, I'll be fine.
- Wild Hogs is the best movie ever.
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